Monday, October 21, 2013

telegram

all your life
you've been told Boy!
Oh, silly boy! You must must must
absolutely and totally must
think before you speak!
were they so afraid that you'd have
something very clever or heartfelt or beautiful to say
right off the top of your head

     all your damn life boy
     all your goddamn gift of a life
     they growled into your
     clever heartfelt beautiful face Boy!
     Oh you stupid boy! You thought
     life was a joke! Life ain't a joke boy.
     were they that frightened
     of you being easy with life
     -- and life being easy with you back --
     were they that envious
     of the fun you had

          all your friggin' life
          all your useless friggin' life
          they wanted you to time time and time
          time and time and time
          until none is spent and none is yours
          and you're a mere reflection
          of your mind which is
          a pathetic slave to the time
          until the most fun you ever had
          became the twenty bucks
          you've found in your jean pocket
          and you did time and time and time
          just like they said
          you did just as they said Boy!
          Oh, you good-for-nothing boy! You
          just spend your time! Time won't
          come back boy! It sure as hell won't.
          and all you wanted to say
          was but sir oh good sir my dear sir
          time might not come back
          but i can't pile it up
          time ain't no fish sir
          i can't pile time up
          time is all but you have
          in the blink of an eye sir
          and i want that blink to be mine
          i wanna spend and spend and spend
          until time is no more
          until i am no more

               you wanted to say
               but you couldn't could you boy
               so you did just as they said
               knowing you're right and they're wrong
               hating them secretly
               (and sometimes evidently)
               but you never hated what they said
               more than your helpless silence
               so you shut up and did just as they said
               hating yourself

                    boy
                    don't
                    sun still shines
                    lights up and up and up
                    your clever heartfelt beautiful face

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